my heart was aching. it was a day ofjust waiting and waiting, not understanding what was happening, not knowing if dylan was alive or dead, not knowing if he had really hurt other people or if this was all kind of twisted mistake. all day long ijust kept asking the police over and over again, where s my son, is my son dead? late in the afternoon, one of them sent to me, yes, he is. we got to our family member s house that night, and they had the television on. the news media was beginning to talk about how many people were killed, how many were injured. there was still confusion. ijust remember groaning, i was literally groaning. and my family member said to her husband, turn it off. i saw the detective pull in, and he was going to take me down to the san diego county sheriff s department. they said, you may want to duck your head. there were cameras that they were putting right up to the window of the police car and saying, are you the father, are you the father of the shoot
and said. him and tapped him on his shoulder and said. i him and tapped him on his shoulder and said, i think i am the shooter s father~ and said, i think i am the shooter s father~ he and said, i think i am the shooter s father. he took me underneath the tape father. he took me underneath the tape. detectives said, we will go over here tape. detectives said, we will go over here and ask some questions. i still over here and ask some questions. i stilt doh t over here and ask some questions. i still don t know how many people are kitted. still don t know how many people are kitted. how still don t know how many people are killed, how many people are injured, i killed, how many people are injured, i don t killed, how many people are injured, i don t know killed, how many people are injured, i don t know if andy is dead or alive i don t know if andy is dead or alive i m i don t know if andy is dead or alive. i m asking about andy, do not getting alive.
For not being a mum he deserved, for not being someone he could come to and talk to, for not knowing how to listen properly to him. i would give anything to have him come to me and put his arms around me and say it s ok . he did something terrible that day. and it took a long time to understand why. but he s my only son and i offered him unconditional love. the funny thing is, as you know, his mum when we were together at first, she had to convince me, she wanted another child. i said no, man, i don t want somebody like me, you know? and i didn t get somebody like me, i got somebody like andy.
Santana high school said that if it wasn t for andy, there were no problems at the high school. he was just a little kid at the back row, he comes up and approaches the microphone and said, i m a member of the marching band, the bullying is awful here, i don t blame andy for coming to the school and shooting up the place, this place is awful, the bullying is terrible. in the next day in the newspaper, that kid is not even mentioned. i did take the stand to testify on my son s behalf, but the bitterness was so deep in me, i sounded like the angriest father in the world. i was steaming mad. yes, iwas hurtand mad. nicholas, he was injuvenile. i went out to see him. he said, dad, i have been going through this for two years. the first year i came here,
Report, and blamed andy on all the problems at the school. it was all andy s fault. before andy there was nothing wrong with our school. you just look at this going, right. andy was bullied at santana, his backpack was thrown into urinals, and years later i know what would cause and issue the what would cause andy to do the shooting. he had the sentencing hearing, the victim impact statements were read, and so for four hours i had to sit there and listen to how bad my son was and how people s lives were affected. the cops report from