resting her palm on willow tree hips this one s entitled the funeral. wait a minute, get in character. scent of flowers assaults my nose, carnations, rose, the smell of green. i like a wedding. you can sit where you want. no usher hushing, bride or groom. funny, all women look good in black. i think i m going to do pretty good on the poetry. i m a little nervous and don t fully remember my poem. i think it will come. as soon as i get out there, it will just flow. please excuse me if this is a little graphic. i will cut as much of the cussing i can out. [ laughter ] keep it real, home boy. i am. get real. ready? who would have thought the penal law would send a 15-year-old boy to juvenile hall give him 15 to life for taking another life
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court and they re telling me i m not going to be tried as a juvenile, they re going to sentence me to life in prison, when the man told me that, he said are you a cold-blooded murderer and we want you to rot in prison. i m sentencing to you life in prison and he slammed down his little hammer and my mom screamed. how would your mom feel? this is what it took to get them to us. it took me to come to prison. it took shahib to realize there s more value in society and life than committing crime. with the knowledge they may never leave san quentin, the squires hope to never see these boys restrained by a security level. it s like i don t want to come over here. not a good place to be. overall, today was really, really good. i felt like i made a difference today.
i was so young, i just felt like you know what, my life is over. i ve got a life sentence. it s over. i came to prison and started into the same behavior. i was like for the first nine years, i was using whatever i could, drugs, prison alcohol. just trying to do anything that i could to escape the reality of my situation and what i had done. you know. and that just self-medicating, again, the same way i was on the street. all the pain, everything that came up for me, that was my solution, to self-medicate. and that s what i did. in his struggle to conquer addiction, rusty discovered a passion for counseling others. i ve been in 12-step programs for, oh, geez probably about 18 years now, 19 years. but the current program i m in, it s called a.r.c.
every saturday, we bring in groups of kids from san francisco, oakland, richmond, all over. you re not going to scare them with the little story that i m a murderer and i m in prison doing life. that doesn t scare anybody anymore. what you want to know, that this is your life, man. you have an opportunity to leave out of this place and never come back. we try to show them this is what could happen if you keep doing what you re doing. all right, you guys. where you guys is at right now, you guys is in r and r, which is receiving and release. when you decide you guys wants to commit crimes and the judge sentences you to a certain amount of time, this is the first place you re going to go when you get off of that bus. for you guys who like to wear your nice shoes, who like to wear fubu, nike, michael jordan, all of that good clothes, polo, when you come here, all of that s gone. this is your polo. these are your nikes. these are your filas and your