i was so young, i just felt like you know what, my life is over. i've got a life sentence. it's over. i came to prison and started into the same behavior. i was like for the first nine years, i was using whatever i could, drugs, prison alcohol. just trying to do anything that i could to escape the reality of my situation and what i had done. you know. and that -- just self-medicating, again, the same way i was on the street. all the pain, everything that came up for me, that was my solution, to self-medicate. and that's what i did. >> in his struggle to conquer addiction, rusty discovered a passion for counseling others. >> i've been in 12-step programs for, oh, geez -- probably about 18 years now, 19 years. but the current program i'm in, it's called a.r.c.