this is your polo. this is your nice 501 jeans, you guys. this is what you guys sell yourself for. who speaks spanish here? can you read that? [ speaking spanish ] what does that mean? something about sexual assault. sexual assault. they warning you about sexual assault in prison, how to protect yourself against it. the inmates are in essence the deterrent that will guide these youth back to a life of contributing to society. this is the building we live in, north block. and this building they have little small cells that are 9 x 4, nine feet tall, four feet wide. that s smaller than a walk-in closet, you guys, but yet two men live in those cells in that building. look where you at, man, you in a cage like an animal.
murderer and we want you to rot in prison. i m sentencing to you life in innocence prison and he slammed down his little hammer and my mom screamed. imagine how that felt. how would your mom feel? this is what it took to get them to us. it took me to come to prison. it took shahib to realize there s more value in society and life than committing crime. with the knowledge they may never leaf san quentin, the squires hope to never see these boys restrained by a security level. it s like i don t want to come over here. not a good place to be. overall, today was really, really good. i felt like i made a difference today.
somewhere in a park. but you re here because of something you did. every saturday, we bring in groups of kids from san francisco, oakland, richmond, all over. you re not going to scare them with the little story that i m a murderer and i m in prison doing life. that doesn t scare anybody anymore. what you want to know, that this is your life, man. you have an opportunity to leave out of this place and never come back. we try to show them this is what could happen if you keep doing what you re doing. all right, you guys. where you guys is at right now, you guys is in r and r, which is receiving and release. when you decide you guys wants to commit crimes and the judge sentences you to a certain amount of time, this is the first place you re going to go when you get off of that bus. for you guys who like to wear your nice shoes, who like to wear nike, michael jordan, all of that good clothes, polo, when you come here, all of that s
scarlet fingertips. resting her palm on willow tree hips. this is titled, the funeral. wait a minute. let me get in character. [ laughter ] she seemed really sweet. sent her flowers. car nation rose and smell of green. like a wedding you can sit where you want. no usher, bride or groom. funny, all women, but in black. i think i m going to do pretty good on the poetry. i m a little nervous, i don t fully remember my noem but i think it will come when i get up there. please excuse me if this is a little graphic. i will cut as much as the cussing as i can out. [ laughter ] keep it real, boy. keep it real, though, boy. i am. ready? who would have thought the penal law would send your boy to juvenile hall, 15 to life for
i was so young, i just felt like you know what, my life is over. i ve got a life sentence. it s over. i came to prison and started into the same behavior. i was like for the first nine years, i was using whatever i could, drugs, prison alcohol. just trying to do anything that i could to escape the reality of my situation and what i had done. you know. and that just self-medicating, again, the same way i was on the street. all the pain, everything that came up for me, that was my solution, to self-medicate. and that s what i did. in his struggle to conquer addiction, rusty discovered a passion for counseling others. i ve been in 12-step programs for, oh, geez probably about 18 years now, 19 years. but the current program i m in, it s called a.r.c. it s addiction recovery counseling. it s a four-month program which is a state-of-the-art addiction treatment program. it s the first one ever in the