for some reason he put it in like a french fry bag and gave it to michael. it became an inside joke. he said, well, i want you to supersize this order. he wanted to have money to put in his pocket. to him that was real money. that is like a child. he was, yes. reporter: a man child who couldn t leave fame or family behind. michael was tired of being a song and dance man. he didn t want to perform on stage from the time well, from the time of the history tour, which was 1995 to 1996. jackson wanted to be an actor. he wanted to buy the rights of every marvel character before anyone else thought of making them into movies. he wanted to play spider-man. how that would have worked, i don t know. reporter: he wanted to play willy wonka. but he didn t get that role either. jackson claimed to be a child trapped in an adult world. he never got to express his sexuality in any sort of reporter: and you think his
beguiled by his intelligence and charm. it seems you have fallen for the michael jackson spell as well? well, i hope that what i fell for was good about him. i don t think i was ever blinded to the aspects of michael s character that are not so attractive or questionable. the ultimate question is did michael jackson ever molest a child? my conclusion is that i don t think he did. my answer is probably not. i wish i could say conclusively, no, he didn t. i can t. there is there is a shadow of doubt. and i learned i had to come to accept that i was going to have to live with that, and i think anyone who s honest about michael will have to live with it too. reporter: i m nick watt in los angeles. fascinating peek behind that curtain, huh? and they said he was also extremely lonely, sought the comfort of others who also had fame like his life. princess diana blew him off because he creeped her out. his life was as much a show as anyone. his life was as much a show
willy wonka. he didn t get that role either. jackson claimed to be a child trapped in an adult world. he never got to express his sexuality in any sort of. reporter: you think his sexuality was? i think he did all that he could to neutralize himself. i don t think michael was trying to be homosexual, or heterosexual or pedophile, he was trying to be asexual, presexual. his insistence that he was peter pan was so total that he got peter pan s nose. reporter: there were accusations that jackson s love of children was in fact sexual. there is no proof he molested anyone. he was cleared of the only accusation that ever made it to trial, but he admitted to sharing a bed with prepew bessent kids. he shared a bed with dozens of children. correct. why? he wanted to be a child. he wanted to belief he was another 12-year-old or 13-year-old. reporter: he wanted a sleepover? he wanted a sleepover. he felt he didn t have a childhood. reporter: in the book, sullivan describes how p
he found a lot of joy in his children. the talent that michael hid from the world. michael loved art a lot. he loved paintings, he loved water colors he loved even the crayons. and her explosive theory about conrad murray. there might have been others involved. i don t know that, but i feel that. catherine jackson with piers morgan starts now. tonight, an extraordinary look at michael jackson s private life through his deeply personal artwork. he started drawing when he was a child. the pictures offer new revelations about the iconic singer. much of it is kept in a secret location in los angeles. joining me now in exclusive interviews, michael s mother, catherine jackson and his mentor and good friend, brett livingston strong. welcome to you both. we re surrounded by this incredible art, most of which has never been seen, that your son michael did. what i m struck by, i love this picture, catherine. how old is he there, michael? he s about nine or ten there. a
would find true love? i always thought about that. but michael seemed happy. he found a lot of joy in his children. on the talent that michael hid from the world. michael loved art a lot. he loved paintings. he loved water clorz. he loved even the crayons. and her explosive theory about conrad murray. he did a terrible thing, and it might have been others involved. i don t know that. but i feel that. katherine jackson. an extraordinary hour. the piers morgan interview starts now. tonight, an extraordinary look at michael jackson s private life through his deeply personal artwork. he started drawing when he was a child. the pictures among new revelations about the iconic singer. much of it kept in a secret location at an airport hangar in los angeles. some of it is here in the studio with me tonight. joining me now in an exclusive interview is michael s mother, katherine jackson. and his mentor and good friend accuracyist brett livingston strong. welcome to you