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Hanna Joy Besser, 37, passed away peacefully at her home in Hermitage, Tennessee, on November 19, 2020, after a short battle with metastatic breast cancer.
Hanna was a devoted follower of Jesus, and her love for the Lord influenced everything she did. She knew how to love people well, and she was a light and an inspiration to many. Hanna loved music and dancing and would often burst into spontaneous song or compose a funny parody on the spot. If you were with Hanna, you were going to laugh. She had an endless arsenal of puns and jokes for any occasion. She wrote thoughtful letters and bought gifts ideally suited to each recipient. Hanna was a great listener and fully present. She helped each person she befriended feel heard and seen. Hanna Joy was a beautiful person inside and out and a beloved friend to many.
and emotional. by that i don t mean we don t want people to have problems after esoal. but in terms of the process of thought reform, all eight of them were active and are active at teen mania. great. it pisses me off that i fell for it all. is that your fault? no. no, it s not.
you know, how old were you when you first heard about teen mania? the first acquire the fire i went to i was 18 and i actually got saved. that s really pretty much the classic age for recruitment into groups like this because, you know, it s right at that on the cusp of, i m about to go out on my own. how did you become involved in it? how did you hear about it? acquire the fire, i went with my youth group from the time when i was a sophomore through senior year. so i was used to it, looked forward to it every year, would wear my wrist band for, like, months afterward. i went to my first atf when i was 13, and didn t think about it again until i went to an atf when i went my senior year and heard about it in a more personal life. it was pitched to be, like, hey, find out god s calling on your life.
always, absolutely. i just had a lot of avoiding symptoms. i can t stomach a worship service anymore. it s not like anything bad happened in worship necessarily but it just reminds me of that and i can t stomach it. i m just looking at the check list and thinking, yeah, i do have some of these symptoms. i think it s the whole avoiding the thoughts. like even the thought of teen mania. i think i m just now realizing that, that that s what it was. the purpose of esoal is to create an environment that is safe yet pushes people physically where they are beyond
i had completely lost anything and everything that was my identity before. what do you mean? well, there was i had no needs or wants or desires or goals outside of what teen mania told me that i had. i guess a good way to put it would be soul murder. i know that might be extreme, but i think that s a way of defining it. when i think about who i was in high school and before teen mania, it s it s almost like i m in mourning, and that s been a huge part of my own sort of recovery process, is this idea of grieving for who i was, because so much of who i was i feel was taken away from me or in some cases suffocated to the point where i just didn t think that that part of who i am was ever going to come back. when i m doing things that are going to cause problems that was ten years of my