it wasn t that many more months between then and when she got pregnant with pepper, it was really fast. 5 or 6 months max. how was she during that pregnancy? terrified. i mean, as someone who has had multiple miscarriages and every time i ve been pregnant it s been just nail biting because you just think something could happen at any time. yeah. that s how it seemed to me so much so she went off her antidepressant she had been on a long time. it s like i almost waited for the other shoe to drop immediatehy, just waiting for it to go wrong. right from the get-go. don t get sucked in, don t get attached, don t get overconfident.