35 years later, exclusive jailhouse recordings. i was on a very fast roller coaster and there was just no stopping it. rare interviews with lennon s family, friends, those who were there. hard to imagine it was reality. speak out. do you think he s insane? no, i do not. i m sorry i m such a mess. killing john lennon. you didn t have to feel obligated to come today. i m sorry i m such a mess. i feel really bad about not shaving for you. i just barely got out of bed about half an hour ago.