>> 35 years later, exclusive jailhouse recordings. >> i was on a very fast roller coaster and there was just no stopping it. >> rare interviews with lennon's family, friends, those who were there. >> hard to imagine it was reality. >> speak out. >> do you think he's insane? >> no, i do not. >> i'm sorry i'm such a mess. >> "killing john lennon." >> you didn't have to feel obligated to come today. i'm sorry i'm such a mess. i feel really bad about not shaving for you. i just barely got out of bed about half an hour ago.