this is withdrawal. this is withdrawal. nikki has been prescribed this is withdrawal. nikki has been prescribed powerful. been prescribed powerful painkillers including the highly addictive drug, fentanyl, because of a rare and excruciating pain full nerve condition which started 20 years ago. it condition which started 20 years ago- condition which started 20 earsaao, , , years ago. it is as if somebody has stuck years ago. it is as if somebody has stuck a years ago. it is as if somebody has stuck a cattle years ago. it is as if somebody has stuck a cattle prod - years ago. it is as if somebody has stuck a cattle prod to i years ago. it is as if somebody has stuck a cattle prod to the i has stuck a cattle prod to the side of my face. it s extraordinary overwhelming pain. i literally hit the floor and it basically destroyed my life. , ., and it basically destroyed my life. ~ , life. opioid painkillers including life. opioid painkillers including codeine, i life. opioid pain
these are the terrifying feelings that withdrawing from opioid painkillers can stir up. niki is averted to her horses they are perhaps the most precious thing in her life. just thinking she could harm them is devastating. that shows just how difficult and dangerous this process of withdrawal is. i woke up one morning and ijust wanted to die. i couldn t access any feelings of love and i realised this is withdrawal. nikki has been prescribed powerful painkillers including the highly addictive drug, fentanyl, because of a rare and excruciatingly painful nerve condition which started 20 years ago. it is as if somebody stuck a cattle prod to the side of my face. it s extraordinary, overwhelming pain. i literally hit the floor and
anthony: there were a lot of freakish, never could ve happened at any other times, it seems to me, bands who had a readymade audience. okay, and you did the same. you can basically say, i am a rock star. lydia: well hey, hey, hey. no, no, no. first of all i never said i was a [ bleep ] star. anthony: no, but i mean but not by word, but by deed and deportment. lydia: i didn t walk into any place thinking i m a star, i walked in thinking, i got shit to do. i wouldn t say i was a catalyst. i d say i was a cattle prod to get people to do shows, booking shows, curating shows. it s just what i do. it s like, let s go, let s do it. and when people would ask me to do things i d be like, yeah i want to do it, of course. people were beautiful doing things because they had to do it, not because of any other grand idea. anthony: so what made you happy back then? i mean, did you have any happy moments? lydia: happiness was not the goal, satisfaction was the goal. as it sti
that are absolutely necessary in this time, as i think from media to politicians to corporations, people want individuals and institutions that are calm and competent. calm and competent. i think that s true, i think most people want that but that s not the very vocal majority, silent majority, sorry, because there are these media incentive structures on the far right and far left to be incredibly loud. that s right. and there s actually research that says there s not so much a silent majority but exhausted majority. these are the people who care about this country, they re on the right, on the left and in the middle but they re recoiling from the political discourse because entering it is like getting shot with a cattle prod. you re going to get hit by the really loud voices. so what s absolutely vital is for foreign media institutions and individuals in the media and american politics to take it upon themselves to do their best to bring calm when i say calm, that doesn t mean d
with a 10-foot cattle prod. buzzfeed went ahead anyway and it back to the question, what would a dossier against the democratic nominee ever be published without any vetting processes? rhetorical beer don t bother answering that. smith was actually getting a promotion, going from buzzfeed to the new york times and being hired to cover media. you look at maggie haberman as well, she is no different from jim acosta who led the media as far as covering donald trump with hostility, using unnamed sources, but will not do the same with the biden administration. he removed himself from the position of white house correspondent to do some weekend show that almost no one watches. and haberman is a paid employee of sand on beer she worked with jen psaki along with multiple members of the obama-biden administration. there is a clear conflict of interest here and it s very apparent to everybody because the new york times stock is down 16% this year. that is a reason for that. sean: that is