when cathy was charged with the murder of my brother, she was out on bond, but she had to go to all the hearings they had. i m sitting in the courtroom and from behind, in the aisle, i feel this hand on me, i look around and it s cathy suh, the person who had my brother murdered. she pleads with me, kevin, you know it, you know i couldn t do this. you know i m innocent. i look back at her and the only things i can think of to say, what about andrew? your brother confessed to the crime already. it was already it was to me, it was a done subject. so after the hearings took place, it was time for the trial and k cathy s lawyers were stirring around and they looked upset. the problem was they didn t know where cathy was. the trial has to go on no matter what.