like i'm missing out on doing what i've been called to do. it's discouraging but i just try to keep framing it as this is paving the way for something that's greater. it's hard to see at times, you know? it's hard to see. it's like i'm doing a pass-by instead of going in and doing what i've been called to do. >> wow. i know i want to see more of this. you can, too, antonia's reporting will be in long form on this week's episode of requests mtp reports f.f. streaming on nbc news now and on demand on peacock. i'm stephanie ruehl. jose diaz-balart picks up breaking news coverage right now. >> good morning, it's 10:00 a.m. eastern/7:00 a.m. pacific. i'm jose diaz-balart. as democrats work to finalize the outline of their social safety net bill they may have to find another way to pay for it.