i went to the bathroom and i looked at the door and i thought about jumping. >> he was desperate to get home to his family, desperate to find out what had happened to his little brother. >> my brother was murdered. no one should have to face that. >> he appeared at a police press conference after the shooting to talk about the family's incomparable loss. >> our whole family has lost its brightest light, and we don't know why. >> that was the question. why rusty? his friend, laura hester. >> did any of it make sense? were you able to come up with a theory of what had happened there? >> no. i mean, this was a man that just was so beloved by so many people. >> jeffrey moss lived across the hall from rusty at college. >> always had a giant smile on his face no matter the situation. ended every conversation with, how can i help you? what can i do for you? >> in the tight-knit jewish community where rusty lived and