If. only. for. the. course while they are not yet here and not out of course i m very sad that i have to leave my family and move to an unfamiliar place. lost my way it will take me a long time to get used to it i didn t have time for shiloh myself but i m also very much looking forward to my new life. raft on the child i m on i m very happy to have found such a wonderful husband and i m leaving with mixed feelings here. yukio. ....