You are an officer, then you served it in a civilian you are an officer, then you served it in a civilian prison. and it in a civilian prison. and nobody, but nobody, could talk about this, within the ranks? ho. about this, within the ranks? no. no. you couldn t about this, within the ranks? no. no. you couldn t talk to anybody. i had to lie to friends, to family, to colleagues. even the normal rules of confidentiality, to doctors and two priests, did not apply in the military, and i discovered, once i came out, that i couldn t even tell the truth to the people i was dating or going outwith, because i couldn t trust them to not tell somebody that i was in the military, and the consequences of that would have been disastrous for me. hind and the consequences of that would have been disastrous for me. and how emotionally psychologically have been disastrous for me. and how emotionally psychologically damaging | emotionally psychologically damaging was this, for you and for the pe