About writing the book at all. so david died just before christmas 2019, and so i was wiped out by that. and then we went into lockdown. so grief is itself a sort of personal lockdown. and then the world went into lockdown, too. so like lots of people, i found myself sitting at home, not really able to do anything. and i think one of the things that s quite common with people who are bereaved, is you, i did feel this desire to hang on to as much of him as i could because i could sense him beginning to fade, beginning to disappear. and lots of people who ve been bereaved will tell you this fear, the first time you fear it, that you will forget how someone talked, how they smelled, how they walked. so i wanted to kind of write that down as a way of fixing it, i think. also, writer s going to write, it is what you do, but i don t remember writing the book at all. it was almost like a, not quite a trance exactly, but i wrote it out of intense feeling. can you, do you think, prepare for los ....