It s a process. so what your heart wants isn t the same as what the system wants for you. it was courtiers and people in suits. life was much more structured in a way that was alien to her. but diana wasn t actually left completely alone. camilla parker bowles left diana a note saying, such exciting news, love to see the engagement ring. that s a real, like, mafia thug move. that s so mean girls, it s unbelievable. that s a power move right there. in diana s own words, she told me that any marriage prince charles might have made could never be as strong as the relationship he had with camilla. and that s what she was battling with from the outset. but she has something that camilla doesn t have, which is her youth, her beauty, her sparkle, her charisma.
Diana to camilla, never explained to her that camilla had been a girlfriend. and when she discovered that there had been a relationship, would have felt embarrassed and humiliated. and she began to have misgivings about marrying somebody that had had such a significant other relationship. and she was talking about how she would handle this. she fights to become that perfect modern princess, not only for the royal family and the world, but for charles.
did we suspect that she had bulimia? no, i don t think we did at that stage. but later on, it became clear that there was something not quite right. as you see the engagement coming close to the wedding itself, diana s bulimia got markedly worse. and the people that do it, when asked to try and explain why they do it, will say that it is the one thing in their life that they can control. in one sense, you re punishing yourself. and that punishment makes you stronger, or at least feeds that strength to you. it s also symbolic. so when you eat a lot and you throw up, you are also purging yourself of negative feelings, of all your worry and your fear and your anxiety.
Pure silk taffeta. and look at it, isn t it fairy tale? it s in old lace as well, hand embroidered, tiny mother of pearl sequins and pearls. and just look at that train. they threw everything including the kitchen sink at that frock. it had frills. it had bows. it had puffed sleeves and ruffles. there was a ton of silk. it was like something out of disney. and then that incredible train at the back of it, which looked magnificent, of course, as she was going up the steps. the fancier came and diana came in on her father s arm. the gown was spectacular. and she s such a pretty girl. she has very, very little
on the day that charles went to have lunch with camilla parker bowles and give her her bracelet, diana went and had lunch with her two sisters, sarah and jane. she told her sisters she couldn t go through with this. she wanted to run away and call off the wedding entirely. fear, anxiety, all playing into this. and they said, too late, dutch, which was the nickname they used for her. your face is already on the tea towels. she thought about what her sisters said and she rallied, because she had she was a proud person. diana had this sense of courage engrained within her to say nope, i m going to prove to everybody that i am going to turn up on my wedding day. i m going to show them. i m going to do this the right way. i think the rebel, the