one night before i was going to go to sleep. i thought, i m going to count all the terrible regrets of my life because now i m able to face them. i started to count my regrets. it was not easy. you don t want to go into them? well, my greatest regret is that i wasn t with dodo when she died. when i left stokowski, there were things that were happening so fast. and i kind of lost, lost her again. she never stopped writing. and then the last letter i got, which was typewritten was to say that she had died, you know. ....