not feel supported by the royal family. at one point meghan admitted she d thought about suicide. but i knew that if i didn t say it that i would do it. and i just didn t i just didn t want to be alive anymore. and that was a very clear and real and frightening constant thought. just one of many bombshell claims. another stunning revelation, harry and meghan say there were questions about what color their baby s skin might be. meghan says they were told the baby might not have security or get a title. and meghan says the tabloid reporting she made kate middleton cry ahead of her marriage to harry was exactly the opposite of what happened. it was kate that made meghan cry. at one point prince charles stopped taking harry s phone calls. and harry says he and his brother william still need space and time to heal. i want to get some reaction to all of this from ana stewart in windsor england. you ve certainly covered the royal wedding and other events with the duke and duch