it is challenging. it is hard to put on a face every day you know? to act like everything is okay to make it through my day at work. that is what we have to do. it is challenging at times. so in triggers will make you breakdown when you think about a. it is still hard. i m still grieving. debra i m sure what makes it even more challenging for you and lee is the fact that you have the blessing of a beautiful son, kaiden. he was four years old when you are going through this horrible experience. i know that he was so excited about having a little sibling. how is he doing? he s doing okay. he kind of bounced back quickly ....