I also learned it is about helping others, amount of people over the whole year, who helped me, who come to help me, that is about them as much. that gave me so much strength, to remind to reach out to anyone you know who is having a difficult time that one little words helps so much. i m real evidence of that. trey: you know, we have a mutual friend, she was telling mias you welcome through your recovery how remarkable your spirit was and our optimism a source of inspiration for others, where does that come from? you have every reason in the world to be bitter or upset or say why me. but, at least the accounts that i got were that you were none of that. it is a really difficult question, i m not sure that i know the answer, i find life amazing, i find people amazing and accomplishing new things rewarding, when i ....