Her as kind of a source of inspiration. but it was very apparent very quickly that something was off. you know, her clothes disheveled, you know, she was talking, you know, very erratically, and there was always kind of these huge gestures, and you know, my first glimpse of her outside of seeing her work with brandi and monica, is she actually asked me a question in the lobby, and she was just wandering around aimlessly, you know, asking if, you know, the rehearsal was done, you know, then she went back inside, and it s just, you know, there s still that shock of seeing her then, and you know, she s not here anymore. but it just is kind of weird to just kind of have been there that thursday and seen, kind of, you know, the firsthand glimpse of all these rumors you heard over the years? you know, i had never seen her before. and so, it was kind of that was the first time to see it, and you saw it in person and you saw, you know, this behavior, and you know, it just is definitely still ....