i thought me, pistol, him murderous me, brave, courageous, looking for the truth. it s time i did something about this. and then i thought for goodness sake, grow up. jon, there s no possibility. and i thought, he may not actually be asleep he might be pretending to be asleep. and i looked at the holster and the holster was undone and i could vejust pulled the gun out, but was it loaded? what idiot would let idi amin on board with a loaded pistol? and then i thought, you re an idiot. you re not going to survive this if you try that. and so, i did not. cowa rd ice. cowardice. more cowardice. do you regret not doing it? no, thank goodness i didn t. what a stupid thing to try and do! in 1990, you were in to watch