i think so but if it means we never have to go to meetings, then that s a fantastic advantage. and if the end we know what we re trying to do which is educate the kids. we don t need meetings for that. you wrote fundamentally journalism was about me and education is about the kids. and i want to know, you know, just watching what you ve done and this embracing of humility and taking on this hard work, there seems to be a calvinist part here where you re doing something here that s hard and painful because that vein is good. suffering is rebutting. i think my friends and family would say i was just as tiresome as i was. i don t think it s had that big but you re right about redemption in a way. there s probably some part of me ....