patuto: he had to leave the police department. he had to lead north jersey. his family was traumatized and... forget the case. his actions had killed a young man and that traumatized him, too. reporter: five years after the shooting, it remained very much on his mind. spath: every day. every day. usually it's the first thing that i realize when i wake up and sometimes i still have sleepless nights about it. luis: it bothers him to this day. even though he was exonerated. but at that time, we didn't spend too much time. we just, you know, hey, how are you? is everything? you know. and i'm... i'm sorry we didn't talk, you know, maybe we should have. hopefully he's okay.