I am. Sorry. Department of ghanas kind of basically said doesnt make any sense to. Me than a number of young afghans who talk of war gone. Back to or defer to the new year of course a lot of number of them are already out of the country. And only two thousand and seventeen we met near wise shams and puyo in the Afghan Capital how they fared since then. On our return a year later we start off by looking for. In january two thousand and seventeen the varian officials have deported the rejected Asylum Seeker to kabul. We first met him soon after that. Of a valid as possible weisel i slit my wrists. I cant remember how i did it but i recall the policeman saying that if you try to kill yourself or Something Like that it will sedate you and put you on the plane to afghanistan any way you are going to mind im about that was also. Shams was one of two hundred forty four afghanistan were deported from germany on charter flights between december two thousand and sixteen and nature thousand and eighteen doctors in germany had certified that the young man was at risk the suicide and was suffering from severe depression he had neither family no friends in kabul. Has any contacts back then was abdul go for founder of an Aid Organization for deportees. I wasnt content with the chance for a long time because of the support that he used to receive from the network in germany and the madison here so when he suddenly disappeared you know. We couldnt get in touch with him for a long time. Then at some point a blurry photo appeared on social media but living on the streets. He reappeared and called me one day and said that ok he had that accident which he had broken his israel as food as if he was in a very bad shape you know and he was not able to walk for a long time and then again he disappeared and since then i havent heard anything from him i dont know who we are is here i dont know whether hes ok or not or whats happening with him right now. For weeks all our inquiries lead to nothing shams seem to. Do all the more devoted a year of call a lot of number of them are already out of the country most of them are either in turkey or iran or the very few that are a second call who are kind of weird thing for a chance to them a chance to meet the needs of the resource and its only for the big to make it possible to get out of. Its own after afghanistan again is he like so many other deportees on his way back to europe. And what has happened to his fellow return these. For the first time in fifteen months we meet up again in kabul with julia rough young to give us a call and you expect something terrible to happen any second on the street or wherever you might be thats why i cant move around freely i try to hide and i dont tell everyone where i am. Allah voiced being. Who had lived in germany for six years before he was scheduled to deportation in late two thousand and sixteen he found out about it in time and left the country voluntarily. That enabled him once he was in kabul to reapply for a german visa. That i didnt at all because the c. S. First bugger all of them and yet things here in afghanistan have grown awful much worse than i expected. That with that i thought it might have gotten a bit better as on the ship i have problems with several groups or not with everyone. But based on everything ive seen this is not a place where i can imagine living wish me a forest and council to live in. Oh yeah i had spent fifty five days in various hiding places throughout afghanistan fearing for his life. Hes a saint and hed made and he would videos that were also seen in afghanistan he was afraid that the taliban had him in the sights. Be a part of. Our. Lives it was the people. In the meantime we are a few on has returned to germany. And couldnt prove anything in the news just think. He hit the jackpot and what might be called the last area destinies known as deportation policy just after two months the German Embassy in kabul told him that he would be able to return legally to germany he had no prior convictions had a job offer and many supporters who went to bat for him. Today he lives in a small apartment in hama nephron fact. He proved his how many im with him from afghanistan. This is my new baby this is my baby inside my instrument with it though i have to have my instrument wherever i go like every musician with the thought that. It also means a lot to me because i played this instrument when i was in afghanistan and now id like to sing those words the same. Maad all. Arab head. In. Korea is now officially an Asylum Seeker he has a job as a musician an actor and a theater and im stuck and hes married a german afghan woman. Already. So hows the baby is she its our nation im basically at home now in germany i lost everything i had in afghanistan. Apart from my family i have nothing in afghanistan that i can but in my thoughts in my spirit im always in afghanistan with my family. In the gulf last week i had a concert and i had to sing thats what im doing home sickness in german off towards. The side and that was my texts i shall never see my homeland again. On the the highway at that time there was pretty tough for me and the sound hot for me the idea of never seeing my homeland again im again covered. In tone between two worlds is the price that refugees paid for their new life and italy as apartment and hano and afghan music t. V. Program plays nonstop. In as many of the pop stars personally some of them have also fled afghanistan. Now for year is grateful to be fairly secure in germany he recalls only too well when. Had building status a temporary stay of deportation it was a time of knowing uncertainty. And trust me still zero young for seven years i didnt feel at home because there was this constant fear that any day a new law or regulation could come in and they deport me. Youre afraid of so many things what might happen and what they might decide to do to us to meet him one hundred. Two year commutes every week between i am now and im stuck where he has worked at the State Theatre on the way he meets a young afghan shafi. I know its from the theater his asylum application has just been rejected tries to comfort him. You first have to learn the language are you afraid youll have to return to afghanistan what exactly did they tell you. Theres a good so far nothing. But ive been really scared ever since the day they rejected me its some bearable. Thing. And ive also become ill. Deficiences know about my illness i feel sick and i suffer from repeated panic attacks. But a mother about it in. God is great maybe the people in charge will give you a positive answer shes getting training though could help you stay here. Are you working. No im just taking courses. Thats good improve your german too its actually not all that bad already but you still need to improve. But learning german is no protection against deportation in two thousand and sixteen the e. U. Promised afghanistan one point two billion euros in annual Development Aid in turn twenty twenty if the country. Cooperated in taking back rejected afghan Asylum Seekers. Back in kabul theres still no sign of shams that model. In late may the German Foreign ministry issued a new report on afghanistan which was to be the basis of a reassessment of deportation practices. The publication coincided with the First Anniversary of a terrorist attack that largely destroyed the German Embassy in kabul and killed or wounded hundreds of people. After the attack in germany temporarily halted the deportations. That has been some progress but the new report paints a still disastrous picture of the situation in afghanistan. And berlin now intends to resume unrestricted deportations its a decision that the head of the Aid Organization for deportees opt for cant understand. The current flurry we are in the western part of kabul which was supposed to be one of the safest parts like a year ago or a year or half ago but recently most of the attacks that have been happening in kabul has been at this park for example one of the places that we are currently looking at is this p. Six Police District six hour where there was a Suicide Attack there for the last year. And the recent one was on Police District thirteen which is a despite of the right side of me so my perception of todays kabul is like the. Way wars that it was like a year of all. Over the number. Casualties jews are fighting has gone down there has been a surge in Suicide Attacks some two thousand three hundred civilians were killed in terrorist attacks last year a rise of seventeen percent according to the united nations. And the other a very serious thing thats happening in kabul is the magnetic bomb protects you know what people do is that a terrorist magnetic moment to your course and then suddenly it goes warm in the person in the car or the persons in the car or gone you know theyre either injured or killed. That makes every car trip ive done with death afghan politicians and foreign diplomats barricade themselves behind me to hide blast walls and they leave their ministries an embassy its with security escorts. The measures that are on affordable for ordinary afghans. When we first met mary weiss area he was thinking about leaving afghanistan. But he chose a different path and is now building up a future here that was not an easy decision. Like most afghans he has lost many friends to terrorisms. When i lost this role its going from home to war i remember every single incident going on here several journalists from tolo t. V. Was attacked right here at this point when i pause is this road every day i remember them on this single area was logs of the things you know which i am seeing. If you need begin to see that there is safer there is more so thats not working here. You have to be fearless really fearless when you go out in kabul. I dont you know i dont follow those security macit is that there if it isnt that your experience is spreading among the people that do not go to this area dont go to that period. I join i just dont read it i just ignore that. We need there was a year ago in a small restaurant that up ergo he was full of energy and optimism within a few months he turned a hamburger joint into one of couples hit us twentys. His Four Brothers all had good jobs and were thinking less and less about trying to get to europe. The thought of leaving their parents behind was unbearable they told us back then. One day my mom told me if you leave the country and your brothers leave their country and they die on the waters or on the difficult ways never proud of you because. Ill be not proud of. My sons who die with no identity but ill be proud of you. If you die here. In a Suicide Attack or an explosion because you will die. As all of your own people. And so far to minimize his decision not to leave the country has paid off his chain of fast food restaurants is expanding. The price is bigger right now and we have a voice for more people. Right now ten people are working here to spread. This is also our song and this was the first pins are. You know brand that three started. So we will take off this wall and that could be the old style. The young entrepreneur now employs fancy workers in four branches he shuttles between them every day and hes expanding the concept to the most recently opened branch not only office peter and burgers but books. The wise words anything he can get hold of hes has his role model as a business man is donald trump. The problem with our society is the less interest for reading. And thats why thats really are a stacked minefield. If you dont treat your dont flare if you dont learn you dont change if any Single Person is not allowing that change to his or her personality and mind so this is something she is not which you. Are not the same society in the history of humans on the air who are suffering from this to. Use you suffer the same situation maybe worse than that every society that they are on the top of the war they have suffered the same situation but there were the people who paid the sacrifice their work or believe that they had faith and the top positive. The fast food startup found it meant that his brand of entrepreneurial spirit and optimism is more the exception man the rule in afghanistan. But he says hes not the only one who rejects leaving as an alternative he suggests we stop by the slice bakery. None of the guests here we talk to want to leave afghanistan even though they all complain about the security situation and the government of. My days even as a who is here with a mother samantha has just returned from canada where she trained to be a pilot. People all around the world beating that its all about the war and fights and everything but its not about death we are humans we live like other people around the world big we have cafes we have burst through months we have really great things. Pathway cares and everything we have every interest to miss i mean theyre very good ill come back again this time i want to build my life here and i want to build afghanistan here and was. I was very glad that she was in canada studying its far from the war in the Suicide Attacks in Afghanistan Mission there is no guarantee and if you think thats a fact that we have to leave it all these things i know there is already explosions everything but there are going to enter theyre not going to stay forever and that you might. Flee or start from scratch leave or stay. These are existential questions to which there are no easy answers. If you know that better than blogger and head of the afghanistan migrants advice and support organization up to go for himself once fled to europe he was deported from norway in two thousand and thirteen. I was i was lost because many other returners i was lost because i have also been there and got a son most of my life i have never been to afghanistan therefore. The only thing that has brought me into a position where i am good is that i form a name but a was to order dont sit quite right about it let the world know want to have us was deported weeks ago we asked up to go forward to help us find shams a mahdi but theres still no sign of life. Whenever i was meeting him he had this sense of hopelessness because of he was handicapped in a way. Meant to me meant to me he wasnt very very physically old or because he wasnt able to talk to the hardcore crowds are. Every week new deportees arrive. Many come to our dog a four day. Script for how what he said on a wire it was deported from germany on april the twenty fourth on. This show it was still the news shocked me that we did it didnt kill me but it was almost as bad as the garbage encounter the right to go to the news like that it is like death for a person who lived in germany with so much hope and work and who was trying so hard the. Issue what is i have never lived in afghanistan his parents had fled to iran when he was a child but since two thousand and sixteen iran has been deporting afghan refugees by the thousands. More mercial this image was this that if we fought for them in syria we get a residency permit in iran an apartment and the right to work but first we had to fight in syria. Too but this is really good. For this wonderful tension to many why that is just really a war but to the person who is experiencing a witnessing a deputation israelis have to deal with it or that and the one that it is so for some of them when they dont see any hope the only way the finest talk do something thats very crazy ive gotten fired in syria. Is that the parfit shams whose family also lived in iran might have taken. For nearly two months we tried to find him with no result. Then a blogger for wrote us on facebook the chums had called him he tried to reach iran but was arrested and sent back. Placed it was a sign of life and another example of how the lack of prospects in afghanistan pushes deportees to flee the country. Again. By the time we left kabul sans had still not appeared. Back in germany we meet up again with the afghan musician and actor a rough young. So again were lets go on stage now the our stage is afghanistan afghanistan it with mountains with flowers. Oh youre now recognized as an afghan refugee has been involved in a production and im stopped cold gods victory. Hollow. The plane which is about to have its premiere attempts to draw attention to the difficult situation of afghan migrants its about terrorism violence will traffickers flight and the difficulties of getting a foothold in your. Life to. The same god also in the us its too soon theres a big difference between these two worlds. Im in germany where i feel safe and when im sitting in the park or somewhere i dont have to be afraid that a bomb will explode showerhead something will happen on the street at dusk to see a doctor saw something. And then if my country were safe i wouldnt stay here a day longer i go back but as i see it now its just going to get worse and worse flee went on slowly that. Its hard for a period to relax hes anxious about the safety of his parents and siblings. If my home if im very worried about my family and afghanistan theyre in danger. Caught one day and night i think about how i can find a solution and get them to germany or another safe country. And he said when i see on facebook that there was an explosion in afghanistan and that this or that city if i immediately call up to make sure theyre all right good thats the fear we feel that all the time that the tide. Whatever path afghans may choose whether to leave or to stay fear is part of their lives. Marilyns aria is on his way home and. Everyone here in this neighborhood in kabul knows him. Hes active in promoting clean a street sense safety in the district. This a cure to the situation is a constant issue every insecurity answer that athens decides. It needs the business down the street for its. Nobodys coming to beat a visa. When. That thats sort of going inside the city and the people are guy who isnt some people are by. Who but it is there could be whats up. You brits working here. If i ask. What that happened moral. 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