he has nightmares. he has nightmares about his own kid burning. this is the way his ip cars ration will last forever. so, you know, i don't know why we have to kill someone who is in a position like that. it is like being buried alive. >> we, the defense team always believed that joshua never had the intention to kill anybody. after he bashed dr. petit's head several times, later on he got a towel and wiped the blood away from dr. petit's head and then he got two pillows and put them behind his back and got two cushions and the explanation which is in his confession is that he did so, because he thought that dr. petit was not comfortable enough, and he was concerned about his comfort. what occurred with mikayla is absolutely unexplainable.