drag on for decades for manson and his co-defendants. >> i look at myself today and i'm appalled. >> susan atkins died in prison of brain cancer in 2009. but van houten and krenwinkel still beg for their release saying they're rehabilitated. >> i'm so ashamed of my actions. i was raised to be a decent human being. i turned into a monster and i have spent these years going back to a decent human being and i just don't know what else to say. >> former manson family member barbara hoyt isn't buying it. >> i think they're a danger to the public. i think they're influence is dangerous. >> her memories of the brutal crime run too deep. >> i can't tell you the times my daughter has woken me up because i was screaming in my sleep. >> hoyt's ultimate nightmare? charles manson getting out of prison. >> oh. oh, my god, because he's just -- he's just evil.