wonderful 5-year-old that's just absolutely changed my life. i don't look forward to the day when i have to explain to him what happened to me and what kind of world we live in, because right now, he thinks everybody is good and everybody is wonderful. >> people change and people move on. but i can tell you personally, from my standpoint, my grandkids' grandkids will know as much as i know right now, they won't have all the feelings that i've got, but they will know what happened on that day of april the 19th. they're going to know the people that lost their lives down there that day is an act of domestic terrorism, and they're going to know that evil is real in this world. >> ten years, and i still get emotional. what i want to say is it's not -- an awful thing happened.