life. >> we speak russian, so our friends are russians. we love to travel, but in any case, we are russians. that is why it's even more complicated to make this decision. we never know if we will be able to meet all our relatives. >> it's very difficult for us to restart. we are too old to restart everything anew. for young people, it's easier still. smart people there will -- they will find their way. for us, it will be a problem to find our place in this new world. >> reporter: a world where russians like them now feel helpless and ashamed of a country they still proudly call home. jomana karadsheh, cnn, istanbul. all right. well that's it from me for now. back to kim brunhuber in atlanta. kim. >> thanks so much, hala. just ahead, after north korea carries out its first intercontinental ballistic missile test in four years, we'll look at why some experts don't think the u.s. missile