football players at stanford, he was playing masterpieces on the piano and violin and none of us knew for certain but we could have assumed as much but we didn't care. i went back to the college field and i learned about the fears and mental torment that kwame experienced. >> kwame harris was always a stand out football player from high school to stanford university to first round pick in the 2003 draft. he played six tones in the pros, five with the san francisco 49ers and one with the oakland raide raiders. >> i loved football. football provided me with experiences and opportunities i wouldn't trade for anything else. at the same time, the cost was great in asking me to not speak candidly or be able to be open about myself in this complete manner. >> harris is gay. he says he has always known this and concealed it until recently. >> i wasn't publicly out until