video. but actually being there and seeing it felt really, really, really real to me. so it helped me kind of close the door a bit, but it's -- i think it'll be with me forever. >> you still feel it? >> i do. >> this is a very personal question. are you seeing anyone? >> i was seeing somebody, yeah. >> to talk about it. >> yeah. >> did it help? >> yeah. and also the court did offer us counseling if need be. >> and you needed it? >> yeah. >> i can see that video play in my mind right now while we're talking about it. >> the video plays over and over in your mind every day? >> yes. >> how often? >> i just have to hear the news or somebody talk about the george and chauvin case and, boom. >> what about you, nichole? >> very stressful. thankful to have a husband and a