times. and then the numbers started picking back up and the units opened back up and the respirators came back out and it's like thinking you walked out of a war and being told you have to go back in. it just wears you down. >> are the symptoms the same that you saw the last time? >> primarily yes. they're just awful. every variation, you know, the things covid does to your body are just horrible. i can't make anybody understand unless they have seen it. >> you made an important point. you guys aren't coming at this fresh. you were already on one knee. a lot of people i know in that not really business but the calling of being a healer which you are, people have taken time off.