able to think that someone, you know your best friend your amazing husband, you know the father of my children went through any of that. i want that for him, and it's the not knowing that really destroys you. . >> reporter: da nika knows the likelihood of paul walking through the door is slim. but she holds onto eternal hope. >> i think if he comes back it would be amazing. for our kids. they're growing so much. they change. it was 11 months when paul left and we're coming up to his second birthday on the 9th of april. >> reporter: danika weeks has been very critical of the way the malaysians have handled this crisis saying their lack of transparency has been just as appalling as the insensitive