eyes. [ sirens ] >> i remember the paramedics gathering around ben and measuring all types of vitals and that sort of thing. the ambulance arrived and they put him into the back of the ambulance with my mom. >> there was a moment there where you just let go? >> there was a point in there where i realized that the answer to my prayer maybe was going to be, i'm going to take him home, to heaven. finally, they were wheeling him from the e.r. to a regular room. and i was walking alongside the gurney holding ben's hand. and this warm little hand, which i was loving at the moment, ben was looking straight up and he