>> yeah. absolutely. so i did stare him down. and as you and i talked about and i kind of had that moment that i needed. i don't even knew that i needed it at the time. and i stared him down and i felt really good about that. i had seats in the trial for the -- for another day and for closing arguments and i didn't go. and i'm really happy that i didn't go and i wasn't there today. i feel like that moment that i stared him down was the last moment that i had with him and i feel really good about that and i feel good that that was the send-off that that is what i ended it with. i don't want to see him again. and i feel like for myself and everyone is going through their own heartache, but for me that is what i needed. >> adrianne it is good to have you on again. thank you very much. >> thank you very much.