for you, which was premiered by the london symphony orchestra and then recorded in 2019 by the philadelphia orchestra. how did that composition process work? how involved were you? oh, i was very involved in... ..violinistic things. i maybe suggested a few things. he would say that i sent him pages and pages of suggestions, but they were extremely specific. like, "can the flute be changed to pianissimo here?" it was almost always to get orchestral musicians to play quieter so that you could hear me. but... you felt you were being drowned out? i�*m sure you couldn�*t hear that in the hall. you could hear it? do you remember that specifically? everything you couldn't hear, i marked in the score and said, "you cannot hear it". what about that? what was the problem with that, if you had to analyse it? first, you start with the... well, the first problem is that you can�*t hear me. that�*s the first problem. i mean, that�*s the plight of any violin.