do i want to write a... i don't know. do i want to write a conventional love story? i'm not disinterested in relationships, but maybe you're on to something, i don't know. i don't know about this one. i don't know about that theory. next one. you mentioned fatherhood. mm. i want to ask you about dixie. all right. may i? yep. and you've said that you want to honour her legacy. mm—hm. how do you do that? i have a peculiar way of dealing with the death of my child. and it's grown out of... it's grown out of a feeling that is, right from the beginning, that there was a pretty serious gap between what people expected me to feel and how i felt and... i mean, the most obvious example was i had lots of letters from people who had lost children, who proceeded to tell me that i would be living with these feelings of guilt. and i thought, "that's