six years on, what will it mean to see salah abdeslam standing in the dock? you know, you just imagine... you just imagine somebody with a strong intellectual... maybe... maybe i'm wrong. but people, we think, that's this kind of man who have done so awful things. stephane says he doesn't need to see the key defendant — but he wants abdeslam to see him. after six years, it's very important for me to face him and to face the other and to say, "ok, look at me, i'm there, i'm alive." my son is not there but through me, he's still here, we are still standing. you didn't win. for stephane, this trial marks the moment when national trauma becomes national history. easierfor a nation to move on, he says, than for him. lucy williamson, bbc news, paris.