we were crying, we were screaming. iran into the toilet and was physically sick during that diagnosis phone call. it was such an overwhelming shock. to be told that your husband, your best friend, your soulmate has got a five—to—ten—year management plan, to think about the potential inevitability of being a single parent to darcey, and holly and isobel losing their dad at a young age is a huge fear for me. are you and your doctors in any doubt that what you have suffered is as a direct result of repetitive blows to your head? yeah, that was his words and that's in my 50—page report. the damage was caused by repetitive head knocks from playing rugby professionally for 14 years.