Reaction. A lot was happening at the same time. I thought i could get killed at any minute, so i thought i would see them in heaven. Now i am far away it is different to hear the people have been killed. I have many friends and family and i dont know if they are alive. I dont know who i have lost and who i havent lost. On a personal level, ifeel i have lost and who i havent lost. On a personal level, i feel kind i have lost and who i havent lost. On a personal level, Ifeel Kind of numb. Ifeel like im still not processing, i still dont understand what is happening, how it has been more than 100 days, i dont understand how it is happening again. I dont understand my grandpa used to tell me the history, but this history is happening again. I