to the bbc�*s connor gillies. loch lomond. these waters may be beautiful, but they can be lethal. a place where memories are made and lives are lost. 16—year—old connor markward was out enjoying the sun three weeks ago with his friends when he drowned. ijust feel it every day, it is... ijust miss him dearly. he was only 16 but he really packed so much into his wee life, he really did. he was one in a million. i was just numb. i'll be honest, ijust went numb. i couldn't... i couldn't process it at all. i feel as though my heartjust collapsed. and he was only my brother, my baby brother. yes, so sad, i can't believe he walked out this door and didn't come back in.