in the last weekjake's mother, nathalie, has been watching events unfold in afghanistan, and she's been speaking to our special correspondent, ed thomas. i light my candles and i'd touch that picture. i'd say good morning, good night. i'll talk to him, it's like he's here. holding on. memories of corporal jake hartley. i have jake's old iphone and wallet with money and items and cinema tickets. i've got his best clothes, and i polish his buckle. and i still have his shoes in t�*shoe rack. they're just little comforts. it might seem crazy to some people, but... yeah. it's nearly ten years since jake was killed in afghanistan. losing jake has caused so much pain. so much pain. he was 20 years old. i've not wanted to be here. i have attempted, i have. it's...