every time i talk to you, i think you are 100% honest with me. ifeel ashamed, i do feel ashamed. your truth today, tony, is not necessarily the same as your truth tomorrow. it isn't, things change for me. you've caught me in a melancholy... ..attitude, and that shocked me. i'm mentally ill, and that's a fact. i wouldn't deny it. i'm good at looking normal, and being normal, but at the base level, i'm just, you know, istruggle to hang on to reality sometimes. i am back in the coffee shop, which is also birkenhead's mental health crisis centre. so when people are just finding something to fidget with, they are there. they can help, can't they?