deep science stuff. it is just a tiny bit of gap between that and absolute zero. but what i don't get to see is the everyday hard grind of his life. sometimes, when he's having a moment, he sends an e—mail. do you want to read my... "i'm looking forward to dying. i am done with this world, the wars everywhere, religion causing more problems than it solves". yeah, yeah, i remember saying that. "there is no such thing as god, there is no such place is heaven or hell". that's true. "no one cares what happens to me, theyjust want me off drugs. i don't think there is much more to say, except i will try to stay off drugs from now on, but to the detriment of my life". so you have told me before that you take drugs because you like taking them? they make me feel better than the feeling i get when i'm straight. with all the things that have