rain, that relief from pain when she lost a decade of her life. it's relentless nature in her arms, legs and next, captured in her diary. it became a little bit to make make much to keep writing this down because every dayjust seemed the same. she down because every day 'ust seemed the same.i down because every day 'ust seemed the same. she also knows the fear of — seemed the same. she also knows the fear of feeling _ seemed the same. she also knows the fear of feeling she _ seemed the same. she also knows the fear of feeling she was - the fear of feeling she was dependent on prescription and painkilling drugs. in her case, morphine. painkilling drugs. in her case, morphine-— morphine. it's like my subconscious - morphine. it's like my subconscious was i morphine. it's like my - subconscious was screaming. morphine. it's like my _ subconscious was screaming. you are gonna die. you are literally gonna die if you don't do something. i didn't know that i was slowly overdosing. like, it's like a silent killer. 50 overdosing. like, it's like a silent killer.— overdosing. like, it's like a silent killer. so with the help of her gp, — silent killer. so with the help of her gp, lorraine _ silent killer. so with the help of her gp, lorraine has i of her gp, lorraine has gradually weaned herself off morphine. gradually weaned herself off morphine-— gradually weaned herself off morhine. �* ., ., , ., morphine. i've got family who i love and adore _ morphine. i've got family who i love and adore and _ morphine. i've got family who i love and adore and life - morphine. i've got family who i love and adore and life is i love and adore and life is worth living and there are so many reasons for us to be here.