People have been detained after a night of violence sparked by a hike in the price of public transport tickets the police are investigating reports that a hiring gay player was racially abused during his team's f.a. Cup qualifying match with the oval time on the how to game manager took his players off the pitch in the time it was abandoned rugby England will play New Zealand in the semifinals of the World Cup in Japan next weekend it follows strong victories for both sides today over Australia and Ireland respectively b.b.c. News the. Video For now we return to our dramas high section of Marcel Proust In Search of Lost Time. Team are struggling to live together in their flat in Paris and Marseille is becoming increasingly control controlling of team. Marcel Proust In Search of Lost Time adapted from the French by Timberlake working Baker. Part 8. Team disappears. During that evening at the bare dunes as I listened to banter his music I thought a break fear that LP team might lead me one day Baaja soon as I came back home and saw that she was there waiting for me this feeling dissipated and I felt more like a prisoner than a jailer this changed again when I noticed a certain irritation coming at her face as soon as I told her I had been at the bandura. By a sense of enslavement weakened as I became aware of hers. I can not only from the theater I was waiting for you were playing a new piece that. There had. Didn't isn't would say that I could do either. I didn't think it would upset you not to go to the verdict or upset. Why would I be upset I couldn't care less it was end of me when they expected numbers are going to her and her friend. Peter the expected Did you speak again tonight and the other windows did not. Utopia so for the day you met her in the street. There are so many things you don't tell me you want to spend 3 days in the bank what is the card you sent me from by Dec I write so late it doesn't take weeks for the post to arrive from Babbitt what 3 days back I sent you there with the show folks. You want to undertake. So that. What happened is that the post show felt wanted 3 days off and he was afraid to post but I wanted to do him a favor but it's never a good idea to help someone I know that now I wrote some cards in advance and he was supposed to send them from back but the idiot forgot and that's why they are right said the 8 I spent 3 days with on the day I was bored stiff all that because he wanted to spend some time sorting out problems with his family I didn't even dare go out the only time I did go out I went disguised as a boy puts my supposed to believe what I say it's the truth. About their coat you sent me from their site if you don't to me why don't you want to show that and your intimate knowledge of them was a friend. Can you explain it. To them it went back on the train to do you even remember what you say high horse except treating you so who condescending to me that if I had nothing to say when you said you were interested in then tase me using I exaggerated echo I had a friend of a friend who knew members had bent I pretended I knew them well. And wanted to impress you and show you I was more than a boring Provincial I thought it would draw is closer Why did you was members inventory of a friend they would probably say they never even knew me and d.c. . My little work you suddenly became interested in he saw me as someone quite different and desirable and here we are in Paris. I did see her some quite Well then listen if you feel upset that you missed a veteran tonight we're going to give you a few 100 francs and you can be the she cursed us and in fact madam that around to dinner here you spend money on those old people I'd rather you gave me that money so I could stay as they say they were. What we are but it's time. I know how to sleep on the contrary you seem very awake I was thinking that dinner for the better. It's very nice of you too I was asking you what you were about to say I didn't understand the sentence please finish it please leave me alone why why did you stop yourself is the kind of vulgar expression you hate I heard that expression once in the street it doesn't mean a what expression leaves and stay stay stay What did you mean to say stay under. I know what that means I did what your talking about. My dear little abductees have to tell you something. I wouldn't have said this a few months ago but there has been. Big change in the hound of. Your board here I can see that it would be better for us to separate. And since the best operations are rapid let's keep this one short say goodbye to be no more of that to do with it and I'm still asleep you can if it's. True to he for too long we have been happy we can both sense now that we will be and that they're saying we sense it we will be unhappy don't say we it's a do you feel that with you or as you wish but it's very late you have to go to bed . And since you decided to break up tonight to give me you've decided and then be a bank in order not to have to find under one has decided that doesn't mean it's less painful you know how easily I forget that the 1st days will be miserable that . So that once we stop seeing each other that void any letters other forms of communication could be too painful let's end everything at once Yes you're right rather than have one figure because often in a 2nd I'd rather awful my whole all at once. I'm sorry to keep you up so late but it's our last evening here to sleep for the rest of your life. And promise you'll never try to see me again even a hero to his. Of the team. I want you to know that I really loved. I was never interested in anyone's life. It's causing me so much pain to leave the kids causing even more I don't RINGBACK want to cause you pain there is only one person to whom I care and that is yourself wherever you go. Probably to. NATO. See. If you never see this really gets into possible. You're unhappy No I wasn't happy I will be unhappy now I'm sure it's better for you props for you. There's nothing really happier here. Seeing the Sox. Try to stay together for a few more days maybe weeks perhaps even longer. There are provisional arrangements that last a long time even. If you know it. Will. Be mad to cause each other so much pain this evening. It's like a trip when Piers for them doesn't take isn't it. You must be exhausted. And sick at night and. Doesn't warn you I'm so tired and simply sleep and sleep that. In the scenes pushed this far we think we are play acting that we are holding these conversations without sincerity Whereas generally whether we know it or not what is whispered despite ourselves is the 1st murmur of a storm we don't suspect we express our touch times the opposite of our desire which is to live for elbow with the one we love. But also the impossibility of living together which is causing our daily suffering. All too soon the moment to the separation will be followed by the terrible and final separation which we have without knowing paid the way. When I went into well beatings room I did indeed see the dead woman she had gone to sleep as soon as she lay down the sheets wrapped like a shroud around her body at assumed a scone e rigidity as I saw the expressionless body ere I asked myself what the local with Nick table it held so that all the actions in which it might have been involved from a knowledge of an elbow to the brushing of a skirt had been able to cause me stretch to infinity from the points it at Occupy in space and time and from time to time a probably awakened in my memory such a tense anguish I was still in the fur coat and when leaving the belt. And remain bent before that twisted body and allegorical in. An allegory of one of my death of my love. I began to hear her regular breathing and withdrew gently his so as not to wake her. And yet now that my life with Albertine a become possible again I felt I could do Raju with nothing from him but misery I was certain she did not allow me better to part from her in the present moment of her consent I thought yes this was the moment I would go at last to Venice this city I had dreamed I was a child I would find myself. Face to face with my imagining. That morning I rang her françoise. Good morning I didn't want to disturb you. By only going to us when she was yes well. I was worried because she rang so late this morning I didn't know what to do you see because the Smalling hate that was a bad scene asked for the cases I didn't dare here I was afraid to be angry if I was you want to warn you I can't serve in housing it's a way to at least and where they keep thinking you drink she didn't want to wait she gave me this letter for you and at 9 o'clock it was an 18. Month more the Dean left. Suffering goes beyond psychology. Only a moment before as I analyze my feelings I believe that a separation without saying goodbye was exec really what I wanted. I have been comparing the mediocrity of the pleasures I'll be Dean offered me with the welfare Bizarros she prevented me from realizing I had come to the conclusion that I didn't want to see her anymore and that I didn't love her. But the words. About the might very well be a dream lead. Brought such pain to my heart. That I thought I wouldn't survive. What I had thought was nothing to me was no more no less than my entire life how little we know ourselves. Yeah a moment before I had for what I didn't love l b a teen anymore I thought I knew my own heart. But how it would intelligently are we cannot see you all the hidden and unsuspected components of bark I can seen clearly at all. I waited for françoise to leave. I read Dean's letter. My dear friend. Forgive me for not having dared to say to you in person the few words that follow but I'm such a coward. And I've always been so afraid in your presence that had never been able to force myself to speak this is what I should have said to you. Our life together has become impossible you must have seen it will sell when you turned upon me the other evening. It is better for us since we had the good fortune to be reconciled. To parties friends. You will forgive me if I am causing you a little grief. When you think of the immensity of mind. I didn't want to become your enemy. It would be hard enough to see you become little by little indifferent. My decision is therefore a revocable. Goodbye. I leave you with the best of myself. I knew the do this son who was embarrassed I asked him to come to me without delay. But. What. Will you help me. Always do anything mechanical What is fine to go well I didn't know there was someone that there is I want you to find a young woman who is staying here with me that's why we've seen so little of you this year she's gone. Off and do you know where I don't have an idea. She has no 2 shit hole there's a station that find the house of Madame ball. And wait outside till you see the young woman going out do I know this young woman how I got it nice and to think you know. I have a photograph it's a very good one she's not a beauty and if you love her my wonderful friend she can only be an extraordinary 'd creature already angry with her causing you so much pain. But some one is sensitive and others just because you are who loves beauty of all. And just for the day from doesn't want. Is the photograph as I said. It's not flattery. It's again. Roberto looked at me with a reasonable prudent somewhat distain for air which we assume in front of a person who is ill even if he has been in the past a man about standing gives and who is now nothing of the sort but rather lunatic who speaks to us of a celestial being who is appearing to him I couldn't help remembering that I had felt the same when I had 1st met or pairs mistress Rachel the woman who had caused him so much pain in the past it must be admitted that this war to reaction brought about by the sight of the person who has caused the suffering upset the lives sometimes brought about the death of someone whom you love is frequent Not merely because love is individual nor because when we do not feel it finding it avoidable and philosophizing upon the folly of other people who comes naturally to us know who it is because when it is reached the stage at which it causes such misery the structure composed of the sensations interposed between the face of the woman and the eyes of the lover the huge egg of pain which in cases it and can see whose it is a mantle of snow conceals a mountain is already raised so high that the point at which the lovers gaze comes to rest the point at which he finds his pleasure and his sufferings is as far from the point that other people see as is the real sound from the place in which its condensed light enables us to see it in the sky I can tell you that by the useful beauty of there is really something of a little imagination. What we love is too much of the past consists too much in the time you've spent together. No one else can see the stand that my friend thought the same of Rachel a long time ago I only want to find her. Now we are all better already what do you want me to do. When you see that I'm born I want you to own for 30000 francs directly like that is a bribe of course but a husband is in politics to help in this constituency and she did just honest enough to accept why not offer less in that case 3000 francs. Explain that the money was given to me for my marriage with empty but I want to give it to her uncle's electric Spence's without knowing anything but how the team must come back immediately to keep up appearances. And there will be more afterwards. I do my best it seems all done who knows duchesses who do more difficult things for us would you go today yes my friend I am so happy to do something for you I hope we'll see more of each other you know that the marriage plan for me. That happens you can make our house your hood your getting marriage is it with the niece of the Prince of government we'll speak about this another time I can tell you want me to speak to other teams on as soon as possible and let you know what happens count on me my dear friend or take the train today thank you. I feel better already I know you had failed. But I meant to take my words out of the teens back out of the study not at all for us was leave everything ready for. A well. If you say so. I don't calm as I waited for south to meet with I'll be to you some and since I was certain his mission would succeed I was even able to imagine beneath and meeting other women butters soon as I noticed this calm I felt another kind of panic this calm which I had just tasted was the 1st apparition of that great force that was to wage war in me against greed against large and moved in the end prove it to all use what I had just tasted and began to for c. Was for the moment the only would later be a permanent stay a life in which I would no longer suffer because about 18 in which I could no longer lump. And my love which I had just seen the only enemy that could conquered it our ability to forget. Began to tremble like a lion cub who has just been locked in a cage and suddenly sees the python that will devour him. Horse was any losses killed this morning no no it says. I thought of Al between time. I want to see her again we try to see again the one we love but we should try rather not to see. Only forgetting brings about the extinction of desire Billings between another being and ourselves exist only in our for the We meaning of a memory will release those links and however much we wish to believe otherwise or try to conceive others. We exist in a. Man is the being who cannot come out to himself who knows others only through himself and when he denies this he is a lying. I believe my need for Albertine my love was necessary to my life and since man can act on the outside world how could I not succeed with lose with Manning with intelligence in destroying what cause me so much pain Albert teens absence. We believe that we are able to change things around us according to our desires Otherwise we can see no other solution we forget the solution that generally comes to pass and which is also more favorable we may not succeed in changing things according to our desire but actually our desire to change it. The situation we hope to change because it was intolerable becomes I mean. We have not managed to sum up the obstacle but life has taken us around let us pass and then if we don't around to look at the remote past we can barely catch sight of it so imperceptible has it become I received a 2nd letter from Albertine my dear friend you sent your friend Sandu to my aunt which was mad my dear if you needed me why did you not write to me directly I would have been only too happy to come back but please refrain from any more upset initiatives I would have been only too happy to come back. She wants to come back then. All I have to say is that I need her and she'll come back. But the letter is so cold she could have said so much else I also felt that asking Sallu to intervene must have left a bad impression on her I wrote back my dear thank you for telling me that if I had needed you you would have come to me but no I did not ask and eyes shown not ask you to return. Meeting before some time has passed might not be painful to you but to me whom at times you have thought so cold it would be most painful you make the decision which I believe very wise and just the right moment. The Motherhood recently the very day you left that she consented to my marriage with you. I would have told you that normally we would have been joined for life and perhaps who knows miserable in that case you have been very wise I'd also bought a rules because I know how much you like taking drives it will remain unused and again but I will always remember wonderful drives together. I believe that as long as I'm capable of falling in love with you again which will not be for long it would be manned to meet again. Farewell forever my little apathy as for the alleged steps which some who took with you aren't I don't even believe he is in that region it smacks of Sherlock Holmes what can he possibly think of me to believe all that I was certain my letter would make Albertine return at once and I was almost regretting imminent arrival I'm a loss of my freedom. First was Don't forget to do other teens from it must be ready for her when she comes she said still she will come back. I expect her to get . Well. My dear friend thank you for all the good things you have said to me I'm sorry the rolls all remain in the garage I realize it will be of no use to you as you don't like to go out I'm very touched that you have fond memories of our outings I will never forget that last ride we took in the double Twilight double because Night was falling and we were about to part believe me when I say it will only be a race for my memory when the darkness is complete and my letter had not had the effect I had hoped for she was still not coming back I felt I had to precipitate matters and I wrote back as if I hadn't yet received the Albertsons letter. Idea today I wrote on time and asked her to come and stay with me I've decided to tell you this before she can inform you herself you know how much I hate secrecy it seems acquired since you're staying at my house the bad habit of not being able to live alone since we have decided you are not coming back it has occurred to me that the best person to fill your place because she would remind the most strongly of you is only to have spoken to her only of a short visit but I am pretty certain it will be permanent. And since the fatal in compatibility of our natures and the mischances of life have decreed that well it'll have the teen will not be my wife. I believe I will find nevertheless a wife list charming than herself but better conform to my nature and who might just be happier with me in my as soon as I sent the letter I reali