Here on earth in order to finish the work that god began, in general, this is a fairly precisely formulated meaning of life, i didnt just think about this key, but yes, i seem to agree internally with this, but to be incarnate, well, in this sense you seem to be some kind of. Then you bear responsibility, but again , you wouldnt go into someone elses dream, you wouldnt go away. Conditionally leaving what i do well, here this is a betrayal, it turns out, of the plan, and it depends on what task you have, why you rushed there, because im a gambling person, for example, but i understand that im not like that, maybe a prose writer, like im an actor, yeah, thats it, but i try myself, and lets say, as a sacrifice to the main path, yeah. This is how to act, this is a betrayal, i think that Something Else is important here, it seems to me that you need to understand all the time, but how you ended up is like a dream, remember how to understand whether it is a dream or not, you have to look at your hands, no, you i have to remember how you got here, why did you come here . In this sense, selfformulation, which suddenly becomes an illusion , your false dream, you present yourself for someone like this, maybe even for yourself to a certain extent, but this is exactly how you make yourself like tabakov, each time you reformulate yourself anew, reassemble, but here it would be like to find this line, well, how to feel check, yes, this is a good question, why yourself . Yes, heres the litmus test of your paper , what to check, i dont know, i have a feeling that if you follow the path of god, then everything seems to help you, just like in the fairy tale about the last angel, so they took this bedside table, its for they have some sense that this is god, yeah, and how they buy flowers for god, that is, there is a lot of this naive faith, yes, yes, as if this is the law of a fairy tale, well, yes, a fairy tale about the last fairy tale, of course. This is very good, andrey, on friday of god crucified, and he went to hell, they didnt know, thats why this is a special day, on friday we will destroy evil, god will like it, and he will help us, yes, right after friday, right on saturday, lets go to her, to oksana, thats right will be, i. I believed that everything would change soon, the main thing is to pass this last test, its very good, andrey, on friday they gave god away and he came down, they didnt know, so this is a special day, on friday we will destroy the world, god is in it. I like it and he will help us, yes, right after friday, right on saturday, well go to her. How do you look for it, how do you relate it to myself, and i still cant find the answer, i want to somehow find some kind of naked, naked truth about this, but somehow i still cant, this is the most difficult question in general , but you are correct here, it seems to me that you are using verbs intuitively, which are all connected with liberation, with clearing, because often we look for meanings by building on them. In fact, this is probably a completely reverse process, that is, you dont add something to yourself, but get rid of what gets in the way, remember how wonderful the image in the rendered ghosts, when this dukhrek comes, such a dirty heap, a monster, it begins to wash itself, and a wild amount of some kind of garbage, slop, and so on comes out of there. Pure energy like the hero of a fairy tale about the last angel, these twins, yes, yes, theres actually a trio there, well, a trio, i mean theyre twins, theyre the same person, called happiness, i love this performance, i they wrote it in large letters, to love is happiness, right, exactly like that, to love, i remember that, yes, and these are very important words for me, learning to love, it is very difficult, yes, it is very difficult, because to love is to give, that is, it is like belonging to another, when your heart belongs, i quote vanya, not to you, that is, not to me, but it belongs to love. These are some very important words today. Well, yes, to love is to give, but it is really very difficult, yes, it is as difficult as possible, yes, as difficult as possible, because here is the fairy tale about the last angel, there is this love, yes, to which they are going, this is what Something Like that a parallel reality in which the main thing is the love with which we connect, in this. Sense, of course they all come home, and alice returns home and the girl from hayaumi azaki returns home, this is the territory of love, this is the territory of freedom, this capital from everything, from all the polyps that grow over the course of life, all of all the slop that you ate, this is the return of the prodigal son. Yes, please, how we brought it all together, it seems we brought it together, it seems like how to live now so that it would be like this, yes, how to return, there is still very. Freedom, there is freedom, this performance, a fairy tale about the last angel, to me it has an atmosphere, a spirit. I m even interested in how much Andrei Pershin saw him there, its as if in the boys word for me there is also this time, when all the godlessness was displaced, you know, yes, but its so illusory too, and youre like its not obvious, like the mighty one, it was the same with the hospital, there it is precisely that these are people, not heroes, not villains, but these are people who simply took the m. Someone is trying to make mistakes, in any case with they somehow figure it out, but they are still going, as it were, to their punishment, yes, because what is the boys word, its a certain principle, yes, its like you, its the law, you know, but for them its gods law , that is, there is the law of god, love your neighbor, and there is the boys word that whoever is like that, we exclude him, yes, this is not even a question of the fact that one is higher, the other is lower, the question is that one is a law and the other is a fake , this is an imitation, this is something that dresses up as gods law, but is not it, and if you start to believe in it instead of gods law, then this is the mistake, you say, they made a mistake, they were not in their dream, they are trying to get out of it, well, someone, some heroes , but you. Already nothing can be done about what you have already done, relatively speaking, and you will be punished for it, whats also scary is that this is, well, this path of their mistakes, it sucks in not only them, but the people closest to them, the very ones, they all fall into it this abyss, that is, they open some kind of portal, a terrible one, some kind of funnel, they all rush there. How together with loved ones, thats the thing, and its kind of inevitability that scares you, you know, its like chernobyl, you know, we dont see it yet, its scary to watch in chernobyl, when you see these firefighters who are putting out the fire, people are still looks exactly the same as anyone, but we already know that the clock is counting, the counting of his life, yes, that in two days he will turn into something. Into a decaying bloody mass, and this is a physical law, it cannot be canceled, it cannot be stopped, it has already happened, it still looks the same as us with you, but in a few hours he will become what he can no longer help but become, yes, for me, thats radiation, you know, yes, thats it, yes, and this is an epidemic, because it sucks in the smartest people, yes, that is, well, not only fools, but also those who are outstanding students. Because if you replace gods law with some other very beautiful law, which is very similar to it, but just imitates it, this gods law with a different sign, i call it the boys word, yeah, you ve seen these documentaries about time, of course, you probably watched it in the process, of course, of course, but i just like that its artistic. And figuratively, in our series this is decided in such a way that when you see documentaries, for some reason they are still filmed, edited, such music that it really looks like something depressing, but what doesnt seem to immediately appear here the mechanism of this hell is in the boys word, its kind of gradual, in this sense its very accurate, because we see it as if through the eyes of people who fell for this, believed in it and they themselves do not yet understand that we are with them. And then they will all die, but come on, listen, what happened to her in the end, and sayigol with this one, who the hell knows, but if she was stripped there, i think so, if the younger one goes with her, i i wont shake hands with him, theyll turn him down for Something Like that, if its a brother or not , it doesnt matter at all, otherwise then hell say about all of our people that the whole street is wearing a mask. You understand, normal boys should wear clean clothes, its clear, come on, thats why many people told me, well, you about that smile of yours, yes, yes, it was completely born intuitively for you, well, yes, more unconsciously, its just yes, but it was a smile of such a buddhist kind, that is, a smile over their life, over when everything is over, when everything is complete, you. That this is devastation and the end, you go and laugh at it, as if, well, at your life, so you laugh, what else is left to do, in this sense, as if there was nothing else left, just to laugh and as if, but. In this sense, its like a look from the outside, a look at this life, maybe maybe its not even the heros smile, but my smile, its my smile, but as an author, and. A role, but in general this smile is like that, its Something Special of yours, its your talent, i would say so, smile at the right time , its not just about smiling in time, this smile that you carry within yourself, its like, you know, the smile of the cheshire cat, remember in alice, but the cheshire cat says that its a big mistake to take something serious in this life, but alice says, but life is serious, and the chesher cat answers, yes, life is seriously. But not really, well, i agree with this absolutely 100 , not because im not 25 anymore, oh, how old am i, not 24, but 70, but not in this sense, in the sense that there are really few things, which i couldnt, well, not even laugh, amaze, just like that, smile, heres an express film that i really like with your participation, thank you, moreover, you know perfectly well that i noticed you and fell in love with you. I was in the hospital then, it was hard for me, here is your post that you dedicated to me, in this sense it inspired me very much in those days, yes, thank you again, im very pleased, its true, but really, even before the boys words, there was an express film, and so in this film, it also succeeded somehow amazingly, in general, this is also quite a dark space, and in which all this happens, but at your expense. And maybe even the point is not that you have to defeat the evil around you in which you live, maybe this is precisely the ego and about yourself, that is, i will be the champion of this evil, i will save everyone, no, but maybe the point is that you have this light within you left, and it grows in you, and it lives in you, and you dont think about how you defeat evil, you think about how not to lose yourself, and this helps others. To be illuminated, this is exactly what i think, i like it, you also know that there is some kind of rhyme in the express train, this hatch, which is like an abyss, and the moon, some kind of rhyme between this dark, as if, bright, where you look, there or there, yes, well, yes. Look how handsome he is, keep him here. Sasha, me, oleg. Did you have a wonderful teacher, oleg levich kudryashov . Was not remains a teacher, despite graduating, it is absolutely clear that you are saying that he was not a teacher, but remains. I really like to mention his name here, because he is a modest man, but everyone knows his students, yes, we had zhenya tkachuk, who is also his student. He always told us that your art, yours personally, is a search for your form, this is your language, when you find it, it will be that same endless vessel, bottomless, from which you will draw energy, yes, he was sometimes very painful, well, how to get there. To yourself, to your essence, yes, he humanly helped you, as it were , to become a person, but not to become, but to discover what was already sitting in you, uh, and to use it, and moreover the most human thing that is in you, sometimes it even seemed to me that i was some kind of unscrupulous person, compared to oleg levovich, that is, he gets out of himself not only to get something, but to get. The best that there is something in you as a person, humanly, that can be correlated with the profession to use, because you must, of course, be a conscientious person, in the end after all, thats what we also said, to dig yourself out, where you are, yes, but it was always very painful, yeah, it was very painful to carry out these operations on yourself as a human being, but it was hard to meet. Every time by yourself, thats how you really find it, because you clear away all this feigned onto the nasal, all this and yes, its all muck, you wash yourself off in this bath , washing off the muck, washing off the muck is very, well , kind of unpleasantly painful in this sense oleg luvich is of course an assistant guide, he is also yours i recommended a lot of the right books, for example, absolutely amazing diaries, i naturally adore oleg borisov as. An actor, but this is a separate work, firstly, he writes very talentedly, yes, plus, of course, there is a lot there accurate observations about some kind of acting work, you said that you have this book, well, somehow in yours, well, it revealed to you some correct approach to what you do in practice, yes, i approached oleg lvovich and said, what i want to become, who is the actor for you, who even you you cant understand and unravel, he says, well, the only one, perhaps, is boris. So i say, how can i become the same kind of cosmic artist, he says, read it without punctuation, here is the title of the diary , yes, yes, i found it at a Secondhand Book dealer, and it was precisely this period, we started filming express, that s it, yes this book was very useful, and the advice was useful, for example, he writes that he was called meticulous on set, well. And as if in the theater it was also considered that it was very difficult to work with him, uhhuh, thats the word so simply good, scrupulous, it seems to me that scrupulousness here is in this sense, that he was engaged in his profession in such a hamburg way, he set very High Expectations for himself, he writes, so we begin a short rehearsal with dodin, and that means i want to, i dont yet understand how completely reset, become a schoolboy who doesnt know how to do anything, so give yourself up, trust yourself. In the chaliapin series you managed to have this one, well, thats what oleg borisov definitely had, yes, stubbornness in a good sense, yes yes convey that rachmaninov had, because that he is not defending himself, even in this case, he is defending the composer, he is for yes deputy, gods plan is a plan, yes, as brodsk wrote, the main greatness, the greatness of the plan, and. This is also relevant to our conversation, that when you are not for yourself, but for the idea, for yes, for the sound, for the theme, yes, yes, then strength appears in you, because. As nabokov wrote, when you reach for the fruits of art, you you stand on your tiptoes, uhhuh, in this sense you overcome your own growth, uhhuh, so i think its the same thing here, like a story, you, when you defend the plan and theme in which god lives, ah, then you are, of course, a thousand times larger than when you again hone yourself, this is what i wanted to convey, yes. Listen, of course i understand that you are a new person in this group, but ivanovich probably told you that i am a great singer, i really want to hear this, really, but for now, alas, excuse me, well, understand, its not just about the rhythms, you are dying in this scene, this is the finale of life, a tragedy of the highest order, this cannot be sung as small as you, it must be sung larger, im trying to convey to you what the composer put into the notes, one small question. You lived with him at the same time, perhaps you knew each other, or you wrote this opera, yes, no, no, you see, what, probably, the composer, as few people feel, well, feels, is that he is a conductor , yes, that music, it. These elements are about dad, for example, this poem brought me to tears, and some very very touching photograph itself, yes, well, i was sitting at night leafing through something, that the case when you restore these poems from memory, yeah, well, its like a babys dreams, i just remembered, selfquoting, i have this passage, i knew my world like a mirror, and we covered it, we covered it with an even layer of dust, but in those places where there is no dust, there is reflected, at least white light, and joy is reflected, and will, and first love, and this field, and this sound, carrying a new verse, the sound began, the verse stayed with me, my new friend and i walk on the water, on the lake, among the forests of siberia, he revealed to me in inexpensive wine my sorrow for the whole world, then what friendship, tell me, or is it time for all this . Spit, a friend looked at the expanse, at the reeds, why do you even think about this, Something Like that, well, wonderful, you know, maybe, because now it somehow fits into what we were talking about, but i suddenly saw him right here, everything, everything that you describe there, its so accurate, well, this is all what we were talking about, just a second, and theres also a poem about dad, but even if you put it wrongly, mine. Will step into it twice, but soon well get there too lets find the light that we once left, yes, again this theme of guilt for some reason arises, uhhuh, why . I dont know, youre working through this, well , because you leave it at home, and you just cant get rid of this look at yourself, like the look of your parents at yourself, sometimes you even look at yourself with your eyes and think, god, what am i going to do now, this not me at all. In general, its all complicated and you think that youve figured it out, in the end you realize that you havent figured out anything, well, yes, its like some kind of flash, its a flash, how do you like it . As if they turned on the light in a dark room, you saw everything, where what objects were, and then turned it off, and you forgot half of it again, and then you have to wait, yes, absolutely, absolutely, this happens with every revelation, you mentioned several times about hospital, and indeed you have a circumstance. With which you are coping, i really hope, but how, at such a young age , faced with such an external circumstance, and how to come to peace with this, through what . Yes, i cant say anything so smart here, ill just quote oleg palovich tabakov, i am simply very viable. Thats all, and faith, really, its not something that i put up with, well, mind you. Or in my head, this is what i was coping with, well, as if outside my will, even, yeah, outside my consciousness, the first days, of course, you cry there, and then you go, just like, well, that means its necessary, that means its such a test , and you rejoice, you teach yourself to rejoice in the test, thats how i think, and this is the joy from the upcoming meeting with health with.