A part of it but when i 1st went on stage i thought very scared my heart was pounding the 1st time i performed on the variance the stage. Ok everyone has to vary. Her or her her her. Her. Initial a relative names on the last bottle and then liz credo again shorter for instance. If they put a lesser 3 columns of names youll see about 10 people at last left on their way they act. Like that sometimes it hurts when you really want to like we have bigger girls who are never chosen for any parts and they usually get upset when the lists are put out they think i hope ill be there but they arent the thing is theyre not very good candidates to begin with. Though. Theres a new still alive barely none of us here ok. Training here is a very stressful experience exams and rehearsals are a never ending process evaluations are stressful as well the child is nervous because she doesnt know if her performance is good enough to be accepted if she is turned down his selfesteem suffers you have to be very strong mentally and physically to face up to the challenge if youre turned down you dont need to give up on everything 2. There are many up and coming dancers in the theatre. Everybody is given the opportunity to dance and. Sometimes some of them have plenty of work. For some people like me there were periods where i had nothing to do until recently. Well i think luckily im much busier this season. After her singing and performing some of the parts im completely exhausted so nobody envious me because they know its hard. To see that youre almost ready to die. When you leave the court about to do so you feel very lonely because some of your friends have turned away from me but thats the sort of situation that i experienced during the 1st year of my 4th season but now everybody has come around the thought thomas i don said after oh. A little closer to it should be no distance between you take a step towards her and make sure her chest faces this way right up to her. Delicately. Very often oksana finds herself at the center of some gossip to work with but here but this is only natural because when she suddenly appears in a solo part after dancing in the corridor ballet for a long time with nobody well everybody starts whispering about her. I think all those rumors are started by many other dancers wanting to take her place. But. The guys are far easier to deal with in general they are better at agreeing on things and just clearing the air. Of. Dunces a single minded people they devote their lives to one cause to work for. Their audience should only see the results of their labor up there on the stage illuminated by the spotlight. Who sometimes theyll spend months or maybe years training just to be able to dance a beautiful variation that lasts maybe a couple of minutes. At the end of the day the ballet dancer is totally played out because so much so that he looks more dead than alive and its no wonder people say that if a ballet dancer doesnt feel pain when he gets up but it appears that means hes more or less dead. Goods goods you want to go to one second youre obviously standing way too close far far too close shes doing the pacu and your over here of course you can catch it but she ends up over there. My boyfriend is a silo. So you could say we spend all of our time together but theres no rivalry we stimulate each other to improve our performance what they say stuff like why did you let it go and then he says why did you dive into a stretch i cant. Sort of thing all this criticism to one another does help us. I think it upsets him when i do it. To take away. Your brain is always about work it never takes a rest we argue a lot because we do need to relax to forget all about our work and switch to other activities but that never happens for instance i might have to dance a new ballets while theres nothing for me to do. I find it hard to dance on this stage its true that i always get nervous dancing on other stages because i feel responsible for what im doing. But this stage squeezes a good deal of moral and physical strength out of me i dont know why perhaps theres something in its history traditions or the audience that makes performing here is so difficult. Distance was. Good evening ladies and gentlemen and tonights performance will begin in 20 minutes. What you see on stage looks gloriously beautiful and everything seems as it should be but i know its the result of very hard work and if someone were to ask me whether id like to go through all of that again with the knowledge i have now id think twice before answering the question what are your musical if you. Eat a. Meal and c. C. R. Nobodys gonna get done 50 group of the needle the next mother told you not to visit indeed those that have a lot of protests that would love it even people that. Dont work. For the. Blog on the coffee break on. Going to does it cause you know. The false soldier you can sleep. With the bullets of the most. Dramatic video the british. Song should i mean shes on that town a small squad will not keep it down at this time i dont. Need to promote. These to continue to continue to use the Police Reports for the way. The. Tensions between the masses and classes have existed ever since modern states came into being but often serve as a driver of political change with Russian Civil Society growing larger and louder against the excesses of the governing elite what is the future of the political system look like. The guys you live but if she warned you and i do. Dishes at the bazemore those jeans nudist beach and you see me you. Come up and when you. Can use i mean that so that in fact involved. A lot of you will see sawing and fuzzy fights about 2 kids each other both sides. As if. The. Last. Year that cabinet fulfilled days doing this is. People who simply do something new to me. 3 of us share a room christina and i come from different cities and the other girls from St Petersburg we usually get up at 730 some of us like to get up early or classes begin at 920 sometimes we have 78 or even 9 lessons lasting until 5 30 pm. Sometimes we have rehearsals after that then we do our homework so some of us come here to strach others to play the piano. Or when i was at home i used to have about half an hour to watch t. V. Or simply relax but not now i havent watched t. V. For more than a month maybe even 2 and a half. Rented a room with a girl jaring the 1st year. During the 1st season i was lucky to get a room all to myself even though you can get 2 people in. 2 people live together in a room like this which. I druther stay away from the still metry. Some buildings in some petersburg. And unpleasant energy. I think this is one such building. After i came to perth to try to and to Ballet School 3 girls out of 8 who were admitted. I was the only one. To finish that school. Was a teacher shows to me saying lose weight it is what it is true that keeping in shape is quite a challenge i try not to eat anything before going to bed but when i come home after a performance i really want to say which is all i can afford is a glass of yogurt this were going to. Float is a big problem for us back home you can eat whatever you want but here you have to be thin sometimes its hard to hold back yassir allowed to eat more or less what you like but only a small portion of the time and if you overdo it you have to exercise i know that sugar and up in the thighs and if you become too fat they kick you out. Its hard for putting him out because everybody is eating fruit and chocolates and drinking juice in front of her she isnt allowed to eat those things its clear that shes still a kid and wants everything but shes not allowed to. Sell what annoys me most of all is that my teacher charles me that im doing very well but then she takes home some marks because she says i havent got the right figure. Dont cross your feet and dont drag them like that your toes are not jumping at old. Junk theyre. Junk. But now the last you managed to push every other time you were going like this you need to go up. Talented children are few and far between thats why we have to make the others do things to the best of their ability we want them to be up to the mark so that Ballet Companies get good dancers after graduation fortunately no style that is overlooked in the academy corridors we make them a swathe here. But seriously and there she is now i have supported diana since she was around 34. 00 and. Ive trained her throughout the years that she has been here. Here shirt regrettably i dont have much opportunity for that now with such a talented student is a great joy for the teacher. Kind of dealing with human genome really well every year she progress. We have predicted should get to way she is now you know with those no no i really dont think sarah frankly what she wasnt doing very well at the time but she had no qualms about it when am i supposed to do she would show i work on the steps ok thats exactly what im going to do she just did it and made progress. To be delisted if you turned down an offer to done so because you have an injury of some things to be pushed by. Point to make that offer again you end up being blacklisted the. Now strained tendon but i keep on working anyway. Because i realize that if i take a break i wont catch a new bill one time i had to own a ligament of course i didnt want the shame of refusing the patents one like anyway i need the injury would still somehow interfere with my dancing regardless. But soon i changed my mind afterwards i can do it i can do it i said and thats why i got laid so were. You know one time oksana was told to prepare 7 numbers in a short period of time before they were totally different routines she rehearsal time for 4 or 5 hours a day but then she woke up in the morning and saw that her knee had completely swollen up. So i took all those painkillers and i still done. Just 2nd oh how excited are you going to show up at tomorrows rehearsal wasnt it cancelled. Please come. Ok i will. Think what it seems no one wants to go tomorrow i was meant to be the one day off into wakes. And now its his and. While. Most course im going to have children. Family is worse i treasure. Everybody says that when she says that too because its not on her mind right now about me but if she has to choose between being a prima ballerina and having a family. But shell settle for the former. As for me i have the same approach. Work will come 1st as long as the outlook is good. I know that if i have a child i wont be able to devote myself completely to the profession i keep trying to convince myself that children can wait but i think about it all the time the 10 truth i mean. It never occurred to me that what im doing might be seen as a desire to build a career you know i have chosen an artistic path of my own my accomplishments are the result of my inner development they give me strength of their perception of life and its purpose i take an earnest view of my development i want to enjoy the process and make sure that this period of my life lasts for as long as it can be i realize that a child would turn my life upside down. Now ok. Or as everyone got sick. And im very insecure i used to dream of being a prima ballerina so i would even the appearance solo part that i played with the idea of allowing me to dance a really Important Role but i had a problem with my knee at the time perhaps its for the best because otherwise i might have never become a teacher. And the 2nd part of life is no less interesting than the 1st one in a different way yes but still. Shoulder blades 12. Comes back up 3 floor and legs trenching out before they head 123. She and for. Bob on. That on. That that on. Me get admitted to the school and become a ballet dancer i earned a reputation because of her the she was the 1st to read something in my eyes that prompted her to look after me she has 4 daughters of her own and i guess you can call me her 1st. Oh. Yeah ive got 5 nice grandchildren all i can say about them is that theyre simply fantastic. I only had daughters. But now i have 3 grandsons and 2 granddaughters. Watching diana on strange or bring her to sing with her took a good deal of my time and then probably more than i could have spent with my daughter lisa but she never complained that she probably and a stude what kind of dance adana was. And lisa was following her room found. She gave birth to a child recently. She might get down soon mine a parts just to breathe the atmosphere of dance she doesnt aspire for more because shes not a lead ballerina. But dance is doing solo parts so prima ballerina is find it very difficult to write and then to that really is. They want more of the same humor. Still like a grown up artist performing on the big stage you have a golden crown and a pink tutu you have everything. You can and i am lucky because there are many turn to incapable dances of the main street there is some give up too early and stop short in the development and cement just not given a chance meeting but then sometimes you see at the dances and you think you knew wow i wish i could dance that well. Come. Thousands of american men and women choose to serve in the countrys military and the decision. Every song came to a complete. The day that i was very. 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