I am an Arab woman who studies the Middle East. My students know what I believe and what I am grieving every day. It is on my face, in my posture. Even as my field of study comes under attack, as those who research the Middle East are criminalized and subject to harassment, my friends and I continue doing what little we can to live with ourselves. We organize teach-ins and edit statements and donate money and go to protests and vigils and scream for people’s right to live while our university endowment helps fund the missiles killing Palestinian children.